So what is it about me? Why do I have moments when I am concerned about my ability to stand toe-to-toe with the next person? Why, as a 40+ year old woman do I even care? I can be breezing through life in a casual way, when all of a sudden; out of nowhere that makes any sense, BLAM! I am in a place of insecurity and woundedness...
I tell myself it's really not so important that anyone finds my thoughts of value, or relativity. Not in the whole scheme of things anyway.
Maybe it's the gray sky talking…you know how the weather can on occasion dictate how we feel. Maybe it's just my melancholy, right-brained tendencies whispering loudly in my ear. We artsy types…we're oh so emotionally charged.
Either way, I don't care for it, this feeling of inadequacy. It's like I am a totally different self, standing outside of the self I usually am. Confused yet? Makes two of us! All I know is that I can not, will not, allow myself to stay here indefinitely.
All of us walk into moments of feeling 'less than'…it's what we do with those moments that matters. My plan? Even now you should be hearing a sound…although not very loud, it's there…it's me…shaking off the funk. I am willing myself to powerful, valuable, creative thoughts.
And the next time you see me…well, we're going to look at one another knowingly, acknowledging that I have moved on to a more rosy disposition...=)
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