My 180…

What is my motivation for change? Why do we do, what we do? On the never ending path of self discovery, I am learning new things about myself. The past few years have been full of surprises, to say the least. There have been moments, people and places that have made my heart rich. There have been moments I doubted I would survive successfully, fearing I would stay in brokenness. Such extreme experiences, each useful in carving away the rough stuff, and refining the details of who I am. Bottom line, I want to reflect a purpose much bigger than me. Larger than what appears to be the outcome of devastation. Greater than what may look like accomplishment. That’s the motivation for my 180.

We are all different, and I do realize that change can be a bit of a dirty word to some. But to me, well, it kind of makes me tick. Something about the potential of “what if” makes me very happy. I start to formulate lists of possibilities. I throw thoughts around my mind until they become so deafening internally that I have to let them out. Yes, there are fears and insecurities. If honest, we all have them. But I guess the “what if” is becoming weightier than the fear, with every moment.

What if…I give without expectation, choose to dwell on goodness, own my shortcomings without blaming…I forgive as quickly as I am offended, speak the truth in love, and laugh over the spilt milk in life…I look for the silver lining, believe and hope for the best, be the first to respond when there is a need…l look for the value in others, extend a helping hand, offer what I have & not expect return…I treat others without thought of where it may get me, I approached situations as if “NO” wasn’t an option, and learned to turn my fears of failure into adventures… I build up, make beautiful, spur on…I look in your eyes when I speak to you, giving you my ear & focus because I want you to know that I find worth in you. You matter. Your very existence has meaning and purpose.

“Your lives are like a letter from Christ. He did not write his letter with ink but with the Spirit of the living God. He did not write it on stone but deep inside living human people” 2 Cor. 3:3

Just imagine it. If I were to live my life as a letter from God, openly read. If my transparency were to show the turn I’ve made…if somehow in the reading of my life, others would encounter the Spirit of the living God, their Designer and Creator. And in that introduction, they too would come upon a turn in their own paths of purpose, greater than they could have imagined. Pretty sure we would see the world turned upside down.

What if…